Monday April 25, 2005 posted @ 5:30PM amore_di_vita New journal. Add it cause it's friends only :) 1 comment|post comment

Sunday April 24, 2005 posted @ 8:56PM [ mood | loved ] [ music | The Postal Service - Be Still My Heart ] I finished King Lear and didn't comprehend anything.. so I might as well not have read it and saved 4 hours of my life. Ay. Anyways. The breakfast place in Sea Isle wants me to stop by and talk to them (my mom talked to somewhere who worked there, and she talked to them, so yea, the message was delivered through the grapevine). There's no communication at Casa Del Dolce. I can't even say the name right half the time. I was supposed to be in at 8 today.. which was changed from 9 when the schedule was put up, and no one told me. So I went in at 9. Oh well. I'm working 3 days this week. I'm not making any money. I hate that it takes me 20 minutes to get there and 20 minutes to get home. I went from not finding any jobs to finding too many. But at least I don't have to go back to Mike's. It's sad.. me, Sammie, and SJ all said we were leaving.. I was the only one who could. They both are going back. And Gerry will be there... for the rest of his damn life, so he doesn't count. I'm supposed to be writing my psychology abstract.. not rambling on here. I love my boyfriend. He makes me happier than happy. I love everything.. even our weak little fights, usually just me being a little brat and him getting mad at me getting mad, haha. I can't believe it's almost a year. A year. That's 365 days. 8760 hours. 525600 minutes. And well, you get the idea. Ahh.. it just brings a smile to my face.. I got what I waited so long for. And every single tear, every single minute upset, every single second where I just wanted to give up in the past.. it's all been worth it. What I had to go through to get to this point.. all the shit that happened sophomore year.. the "self sacrifice" junior year (that didn't last.. haha).. me being with someone else and everything that happened with that someone else and how in this weird and twisted way, it brought us together.. I wouldn't change a second, because I know just one second different could alter the present that I love so much, and the future I look so forward to. Okay, I'm done being all sentimental. And I'm gonna get a'workin' on this Psych.. *rolls eyes* "And then I felt the scrapes from the slippery subway grate, oh how you laughed at my complete lack of grace, but I could not recall a more perfect fall cause when I looked up into your eyes, it didn't hurt at all..." xoxo <3 post comment

Sunday April 24, 2005 posted @ 5:20PM King Lear makes me wanna tear my eyes out. The End. post comment

Saturday April 23, 2005 posted @ 11:53AM [ mood | satisfied ] Okay.. so I haven't updated in a while.. I haven't felt like it. I started my job. I like it, I'm not making any money really, but so far, everyone's nice and I like it. Although I may have found a breakfast job here in Sea Isle.. so I'm really torn on whether to stay where I am (cause I know once the summer comes I will make more money) or go to this other place. It's much more convienent.. I think I'll wait till the schedule goes up tomorrow for where I am, then stop by the other place. Ayy. Trying to balance 2 places might not be that great of an idea.. but I want money lol. Anyways. 20 days left of school, I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT TILL GRADUATION! Haha. My brain has pretty much completely shut off. I'm so ready for the summer. Prom is in like.. 10 days or something. Limo's booked. Table's set. Dress and everything is all ready to go. Dave's got a tux. Pretty much know what we're doing afterwards, just gotta book that too. And have Joe hook it up with the booze.. I finally feel the stress from that slipping off of me. Mr. Spartan was hilarious. Haha wow.. good times. Well I'm off to go take a shower.. going shopping this afternoon.. doing what I do best.. 1 comment|post comment

Sunday April 17, 2005 posted @ 7:25PM [ mood | ache-y ] [ music | The Eagles - Desperado (sp?) ] Kelly's 3rd quarter report card... Religion 4 - A Adv. World Lit - A Comment: A pleasure to have in class Adv. Creative Writing - B+ Comment: A pleasure to have in class AP European History - B AP Psychology - A Comment: Highly motivated Comment: Works diligently Adv. Business Management - B+ Comment: Good effort and attitude Comment: A pleasure to have in class GPA: 3.6 Yeaaa.. I pulled an A outta my ass in Lit.. Patrick refuses to give me an A in her class, ever.. oh well. This quarter I could care less. I dunno when I'm working. Well officially. Jess saw the schedule and she said she think it's Tuesday and Wednesday this week.. and then Sunday morning 9-3. I'm just waiting for them to give me the official call so I know when I gotta be in. Today was so beautiful! I loved it. I went to the The Walk with Dave, did some shopping, got each other stuff.. I had fun dressing him up. He loves American Eagle now.. it's crazy. We saw Amityville Horror last night too.. yeaa I'm horrible at scary movies. I'm thinking about cutting my hair short after prom.. but everyone is saying to keep it longer.. suggestions? Okay.. I've got stuff to do.. 1 comment|post comment

Saturday April 16, 2005 posted @ 11:49AM So I went in to talk to the guy who called me yesterday about the job. I go on this upcoming week for training! Yaaaay! Finally a real waitressing job! Jess was in there today so she'll probably let me know how that goes. He said there's a lot to learn :\ But hopefully it won't be that bad. They're open all week, so I'll be able to work after school and stuff.. breakfast/lunch/dinner is served, so I could have all kinds different shifts. The best part... MONEY! haha. Something I haven't had in MONTHS. I'll know for sure I'll have enough for Dave's 1 year gift, and not be starving every day by saving my lunch money.. I'll be able to finish the scrapbook (because I'm at a standstill since I have no money).. and get my car fixed.. and.. shop.. and.. go out.. and.. save, lol. And hopefully I'll make enough money and won't have to get a second job. Yaaay! I'm excited. Oh and I forgot to mention yesterday I made honor roll again.. wow, dunno how, I didn't do shit, lol. We'll see what my grades are when the report card comes.. I want my contacts to come in.. grrr.. Okay.. I'm off to go eat. Later.. 1 comment|post comment

Friday April 15, 2005 posted @ 6:59PM [ mood | excited ] Ahh! I think I might have a job! So I've applied to 5 places in the past week, and finally one called me back! I had just turned in the application like an hour before they called. It's in Ocean City.. Jess might have a job there too. I'm going tomorrow to talk to the guy. Cross your fingers cause I needs a job really really badly! Anyways. Nothing else has been going really. I'm excited for Prom now. And excited for graduation as it is like only a little over a month away. Yeaaa.. I just wanted to share my excitement about possible employment. Till next time.. 1 comment|post comment

Wednesday April 13, 2005 posted @ 9:36PM [ mood | naughty ] [ music | Fall Out Boy...what else? ] AHHHHH. Sorry. Minor little scream. I'm working on my psych project. I've had like forever and a half to do it, but of course, last minute. "This is a lesson in procrastination" -Brand New Oh well. How many more days left? Less than 30, yea that's what I thought. Although Shrina might not like the fact I'm slacking on our project. I'm not really slacking. I have the info, it's all ready to go, I just don't feel like making posters, lol. I made 2. Anyways. I went to the gym today (as usual) and damn, it feels good. The only time I love to sweat. Gross, but I'm being completely honest. If I'm not sweating, I feel like I'm not working hard enough. I was feeling pretty tired when I started out, but I pushed on and ended up feeling really energetic till I got an ab cramp.. dammit, lol. Then I went tanning. I picked up my prom dress today. Still not too sure how much I like it anymore, lol. The shoes don't match at all, they're too pink (which isn't the color I thought I was picking), but they're cute and not that formal looking so I'll definitely be able to wear them with like a demin skirt/jeans and a pink top in the summer. Plus you can't see them, sooo yeaaa. The limo worked itself out, as far as the people in it. Cause I was definitely in a panic for a little bit. Now it's up to Mom to hook it up! And hopefully, it'll be nice and cheap. I dunno if we've figured out who to sit with.. or what to do afterwards or where to take pictures, but HEY! it's 3 weeks away, we've got some time. Lilly - He's so simply irresistible! Hahaha.. Alright. I stink. I need to take a shower. And I wonder when the hell my contacts are gonna come in... 1 comment|post comment

Monday April 11, 2005 posted @ 7:25PM [ mood | ADDish ] [ music | Bonnie Tyler - Holding Out for a Hero ] Alright. So yesterday I went to Hofstra. I loved it. My deposit and housing deposit are in. The Nassau Colesium (sp?) is literally right across the street, so concerts all the freaking time! Except there's one tiny little detail I don't particularly enjoy: Move in day = September 3rd. For those of you not aware... that is my 18th birthday. I'm not sure how much I like this idea. I sat and was like "Aww, I won't be able to celebrate with my friends" and then I realized.. my friends are all gone by then, most likely. Except Drew. And Sam cause she goes to school the next week. And anyone else who is staying local. I know Dave's move in day is the week before, so at least he can just hop on the train and come help me move in. And he wants to take me to go see WICKED!!!! As a birthday present, probably the following week. I dunno if it'll work out but I've been wanting to go see it. And of course, I want the $100 orchestra seats, but I'm sure there will be a compromise on that part. Ah, I'm so ready for college though. I'm really more ready for this summer, cause I have a feeling it's just gonna kick ass. And hopefully I'll find a job, haha. K, having ADD issues tonight. Adios. post comment

Saturday April 09, 2005 posted @ 5:41PM [ mood | hyper ] [ music | A Fall Out Boy song with a reallly long title that won't fit ] Well I applied for 2 jobs. Actually, I still gotta bring back the one application, it's sitting in front of me. The one place doesn't know if they need help, but they're friends of my parents.. (Rick's, where I always go for breakfast, and they're always busy, hours: 7AM-2PM) and the other place actually has a help wanted sign, and I heard you can make a lot of money there.. (pizza parlor kinda restaurant... yea, I dunno, at least it's not Mike's) I picked up another application that I'll probably never turn in to Marshall's (mainly cause I'd never make any money). I've still got the opprotunity for the pool attendant (hours: 11AM-5PM). Steak Out told me they pretty much have everything filled up, but I could still fill out an application. I haven't ventured to Ocean City or Avalon/Stone Harbor yet and I can't tomorrow since I'll be in Long Island. But I got my new sneakers. And then I found some cute clothes and my mom, being the evil one she is, takes this one shirt and takes me to the shoes and purses and shows me matching shoes and purse as though she wants to buy them for me and goes, "I'll buy you the shirt, the rest is up to you". That's so evil, haha. She got me the shirt though, it's cute. ( and of course I took a picture! ) 1 comment|post comment

Saturday April 09, 2005 posted @ 8:35AM [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down ] NEW FALL OUT BOY CD = MAY 3RD! EEE! Hahaha. Don't mind me. I ♥ Fall Out Boy. I'm listening to one of the songs off that cd right now. Anyways. It's the weekend, and I'm enjoying it. We (me and Dave that is) went to get his tux for prom yesterday. He agreed to the pink vest/tie, yesss! It's not very bright, it's pretty light, and looked like a pretty close match to the pink on my dress. I'm going after school Wednesday to pick that up. Although when we were walking around the mall, I went into that dress store and saw the most beautiful dress, I wanted it soo bad, it was my size and I wish I would have seen it before. It was white and purple. But it was 350 dollars, and the cost of my dress/shoes/jewelry/purse at David's was like 329. So I got the better bargain. Dave took me to dinner and a movie last night, which was a nice little treat. Dinner was great, and we saw Sin City which was a pretty brutal movie, damn. But it was interesting. So I had a very good night. I go up to Hofstra all day tomorrow. Oh joy to waking up at like 5:30, since I gotta be there at 9. Oh yea, I forgot to say that I had to get ANOTHER new kind of contacts. 3rd different kind in a year. I got new glasses too since the other ones on the verge of just falling apart. Alright well I'm off to the gym, then job hunting and getting new sneakers. Till next time. "We're going down, down in an earlier round And sugar, we're going down swinging I'll be your number one with a bullet A loaded gun complex, cock it, and pull it." post comment

Wednesday April 06, 2005 posted @ 5:53PM [ mood | working ] [ music | Jack Johnson - Flake ] Alright. It's finally starting to spring around these parts. I'm loving the weather! Driving down the parkway with the windows down and the music blasting has got to be one of the best feelings, don't ask me why. It just is. We've got a day off on Friday, when we weren't supposed to have ANY this month. And tomorrow was changed to straight A day schedule, which means my weekend starts at 12:35PM tomorrow. Yes! I'm taking the day off from the gym. I'm crampy. That's why. I feel like being lazy and eating chocolate, minus the chocolate since there is none in my house. So I'm gonna lay around and not study for the 2 tests I have tomorrow. I'm still off by the time change, so I'm like oh it's still light out, I won't start my work yet. Well it's not getting dark till like 7:30.. and since I have ADD when I do my work, I need like 4 hours to do it, cause I'll spend 3 of those 4 doing something else, lol. Still looking for graduation. ::looks around:: Ay, it's just barely in sight.. so close, yet so.. so.. far. I'm over high school. I'm over 90% of the people there. Maybe I'm not leaving high school with as many of the friends I had throughout it.. but it's okay, cause the ones who I still have are the ones who will mean the most. For those of you who have accused me of not keeping in touch, I really don't have much else to say besides: The phone works 2 ways. Instead of waiting around for me to call you, YOU could call ME. Or when I DO call you (because yes, I do it, you can look through my cell if you please), it might help to CALL BACK. Cancelling plans every time their made discourages me from making any at all. I stop getting response, I stop putting out effort because I'm not gonna waste a whole shitload of energy on someone who won't waste an ounce on me. Plain and simple. And more importantly, I won't sit and feel bad about it. There it is, laid out on the table. Hate me for it because at this point, how many of you am I actually going to know after this year ends? It's only the truth. Well, now that I've got that out.. I'm going to go do the Lit homework because that's the only class I can't slack off in. And by some miracle of God, I think I'm gonna pull an A outta my ass for this quarter. The even more amazing thing is that I've got close to As in almost every class (definitely have the As in Psych and Religion, Business Management and Creative Writing are up in the air) except History, which is it's usual solid B. 3 comments|post comment

Monday April 04, 2005 posted @ 5:10PM [ mood | rejuvenated ] [ music | TV ] Oh. My. God. I can't take school anymore. I can't bring myself to do any work. I had essays in history due today. Yeaa, I didn't do them, I forgot my textbook over break. I can't bring myself to do them now. WHERE ARE YOU GRADUATION?! More importantly.. where are you summer? Anyways, in other news... I've found I can't seem to write a poem anymore. But I haven't sat down to put down some of the lines in my head either. It's not that I don't have inspiration, because the wonderful and beautiful relationship with Dave is plenty.. but it's horrible to say, I'm terrible at happy poems, lol. It's so much easier for me to write about things.. not happy. So I sit, think, dig up old memories. Which always turns into more than just a nostaglic look back. It makes me wonder, sometimes makes me happy, sometimes makes me sad. Ah. I dunno. Prom = 1 month from today. Any suggestions on what the hell I should do with my hair? I'm looking for a breakfast job before I take the pool attendant one. Ugh. This is tortue. I miss knowing I had a job. Alright I guess I should try to do these essays. post comment

Saturday April 02, 2005 posted @ 3:33PM [ mood | cold ] [ music | IM sounds ] Alright, so I got my letter from Fordham today (and the last college I was waiting on). Uh so they offered me admission to Marymount, and said I could transfer to Rose Hill after 2 years or something, given good grades and blah blah blah. NO. I didn't want to go to the all woman's college that doesn't offer my major anyway, I did not apply there for a reason. But thanks for the offer Fordham, cause I thought you were gonna flat out reject me. You're not that much of an asshole (like LOYOLA) Grrr >:| But Tor and I decided last night that Baltimore's not that great anyway. I love how the kid from private school did not get into any of her private schools (or at least the campus she wanted). I thought I was supposed to have an advantage? I'm starting to wish I had applied to the like 13 schools I was planning to. I went to the Quarter for the first time in the Tropicana last night. It's nice. I saw a shirt I liked at Cache.. until I saw it was 118 dollars. Yikes. But I wanna eat dinner there one night. We'll see if Dave will ever take me.. This weather is horrible. It's supposed to rain till tomorrow. Spring break is almost over and it makes me sad. I don't wanna go back at all. We don't have a single day off in April, and 3rd quarter is over on Friday so I can't miss anymore days... how many days till graduation? RIP John Paul II I may openly speak out against the Catholic Church, but there's no denying he did a lot of good, and might be one of the few not corrupted. It's weird to think about it... considering I saw him. I was like 15 feet away when he drove by in the Pope-mobile when I was in the Europe, in St. Peter's Square for the daily mass he used to give everyday. We got "blessed" by him. (Ironic, since I'm not Catholic). I have a cross blessed by him too.. somewhere. I dunno. 3 comments|post comment

Thursday March 31, 2005 posted @ 3:28PM "When one door closes, another one opens." Looks like it's Hofstra. Well, at least I'll only be 10 miles away from Dave instead of 200. It doesn't make it suck any less however. 1 comment|post comment

Tuesday March 29, 2005 posted @ 10:24AM [ mood | refreshed ] [ music | Jack Johnson - Mudfootball ] Birth control=the devil. I went on it back in December for various reasons.. and I didn't have any problems. It was like nothing had changed. I was sooo scared of the weight gain, I've heard too many horror stories. Well everything's been normal. Well like 4 months later, now it's like "Hey, here's an extra 6 pounds." Like, wtf?! Granted, I could have easily put on a pound or two over this past Easter weekend (ehh) and I have been working out and "muscle weighs more than fat" and my clothes don't really fit any different, still the same.. but I liked the number I saw on the scale. And I look at myself in the mirror and it looks different.. but I could just have a distorted body image or something. And Dave's always telling me that I "shouldn't be so focused on the number, but on how I feel." I derno. I'm just gonna keep kicking my own ass at the gym. Anyways. I went to the mall yesterday. My Rampage shirt wasn't there, so I ordered it. If it doesn't look right, I can always send it back. I bought one of those corset kinda shirts at Charlotte Russe. Why? Because I liked it. Do I really have anywhere to wear it to? No. But I'll find a place to wear it to.. maybe at my graduation party, or someone else's or a night on the town. It's hot pink. Well. I should go shower. I was at the gym earlier and was all sweaty. Dunno what I'm gonna do today, but got plans later on. Later.. "We used to laugh a lot but only because we thought that everything good always would remain.." -Jack Johnson....the man<3 post comment

Sunday March 27, 2005 posted @ 8:47PM [ mood | busy ] [ music | Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing ] Alriiiight, so the Easter weekend is over, as in the annual invasion by my family. They were only here since yesterday and it wasn't even as many as usual. Emily attached herself to me, however, and having a minute to myself only happened when she was sleeping, or I wasn't in the house (which was only a few hours this afternoon). Dave came over on Saturday night and met my dysfunctional family as well and my cousins loved him. We all dyed easter eggs together and whatnot. Me and him also watched "Ladder 49" and I cried hysterically at the end.. I'm way tooooo emotional sometimes. I got lots of cash from the fam, which is nice. And my mom's getting me the shirt from Rampage I want.. because she likes it too and thinks she's gonna steal it (yeaa -- riiiight). So I'm gonna head out to the mall tomorrow to see if Macy's has it cause I wanna try it on and see how much I like it once it's on. And to shut my parents up, I decided to see if I could get my job back at Mike's. Kicking and screaming the whole way down --- okay, so I didn't even go, haha. My mom said something to Mike that I was "considering wanting to come back" or some BS. Sooo, they hired someone in my position. I'm heartbroken, I really am that I can't spend another wonderful summer with Anthony Edwardi *extreme sarcasm* But I should go talk to Jeannie cause she'll work something out blah blah blah. Yea, whatever. I've got another job in line as a pool attendant up the street at the Sea Islander Condo. How hard could that be? Set up the chairs, make sure the people there are members of the condo, sit on my ass and get a tan, then clean up at the end of the day. It's not that much less than hour than what I was making at Mike's and my mom does the accounting work for the condo, so they can't be THAT mean to me :P Okay, time to go find out more info on Hofstra.. LOYOLA DECISIONS GO OUT ON FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (No, I'm not freaking out at all.. nope nope) ( pictures! ) post comment

Friday March 25, 2005 posted @ 5:07PM [ mood | crazy ] Okay, the Princeton Review says that Loyola has a 71% acceptance rate, which is good, very high. Yes, I am aware I talk incessantly about this, but I can, it's my journal. And I'm coming down to the wire since notices are sent out a week from today (so I was told). I haven't heard from Fordham, and I don't care. I don't even think about there anymore.. the place that was so my focus since like sophomore year. Yea, well sophomore year is what is stopping me from getting in there. Erase that, my career GPA is wonderful. Anyway. So yes, Loyola is where I want to be. ::crosses fingers and toes and anything else than can be crossed:: I can't wait till I'll finally be able to relax about this. I hate being one of the people who doesn't know where their going next year, while so many others do. I see, "U DEL 2009" and "LaSALLE 2009" and "ST. JOES 2009" etc etc in people's profiles and I'm like "uhh yea, HSHS 05!" Ugh. I want this whole process over with, NOW. post comment

Tuesday March 22, 2005 posted @ 5:35PM Well I've been looking at the Hofstra website for the past like half an hour and the pictures they have are really nice. And the freshmen dorms are suites! 2 double bedrooms, a bathroom and a lounge.. which is basically like Loyola is set up, except you have the 2 separate dorms to a bathroom. I love love love looove Loyola, but I'm trying to accept the fact that I'm probably not getting in. I mean, I know UD gets a lot more applications that Loyola, and I've got the top of Loyola's range of "average" ACT scores (My SATs however.. more on the bottom half haha), and my GPA is only a couple of a tenths off.. I have about a 3.1 *rounded up from a .08 lol* and their "average" is a 3.4 and my essays were decent. I guess my recommendations are good. My semester grades I sent them were AWESOME.. 4 As, a B+, and B (which is a 3.75 bitches! haha) I'm still doing well, I'm taking APs and high level classes, and they keep sending me all kinds of information on financial aid and classes and whatnot.. but I don't wanna get my hopes up. I don't wanna get let down again, ya know? And there's a lot of other advantages to Hofstra or Drexel.. the scholarship from Hofstra for one. And the co-op program at Drexel is supposed to be awesome. And Dave. Dave could be at the SAME school (Drexel). Or he could be just 10 miles down the road at St. John's. Ugh, I dunno. I'll be hearing from Loyola in like 2 weeks.. and I'm going to look at Hofstra. Soooo we'll seeeeeee. In other news, I'm getting my first A in Pfeif's class EVER after 3 years of having him as a teacher! Yup, I pulled off an A in Psych at the last minute.. although Shrina and I still have to do our project, which will probably only help us. In Creative Writing, Tori and I got to decide the 10 people we'd take with us if Earth was being blown up.. the sad thing is, we couldn't come up with 10 people we liked enough to bring with us, lol. And Spring Break has started.. well not for me technically.. I've gotta go tomorrow for the retreat since I wasn't in the country for the Senior one.. oh well. I don't care. Okay Dave should be here soon.. so till next time<3 post comment

Monday March 21, 2005 posted @ 9:21PM I quote Tori's away message.. "Kelly and I are just too much for them to handle! sooo sorry!" ..I love that girl! <3 post comment

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